Friday, February 26, 2010!
HandWritten on; 11:55 PM
sometimes, one gotta do what one gotta do. im QUITE glad my emotions are starting to cope better with this already. and nowwww i've decided that there's no more time to waste being sad, even though it cant be helped most of the times, but well i'll try. i shall focus focus and bring my goals back into view.
study
make money (taiwan trip, driving, braces)
shall be my priorities. IM NOT GOING TO CARE ABOUT THE REST
life really still kinda sucks
i really wonder you know. how some people's lives can be so smooth sailing. perhaps nobody's lives is perfect, but well they shld count themselves fortunate. i dont know why i have to be so messed up, both at school or at home. or why i have to always be facing so much of crap and stupid emotions and insensibility.
and today i realised even though im so busy now, one day i'll be left alone, probably going home everyday after school to study, not because i want to study, but because all my friends have left me. and i have a feeling that day is coming soon. as it is, they are all leaving one by one already and i can totally feel it. perhaps not because they want to but they cant help it. dont tell me this is not true cause touch your heart, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. everyone does. everyone knows the people they are with are not going to stick around forever as they move on with their lives. just that they dont actually admit it. and you totally know what im talking about.